Good news and bad.

Wooo I totally got the job I applied for! God really came through, and I'm so greatful. Training starts Monday at 9am. I need two forms of ID though...and all I have is my old school ID and and my Social Security card...so I'm just gonna bring those two in on Monday and tell him I'm going to get my permit Monday after training. My mom's gonna pay for it I guess. So I'll owe her $170 ($30 for the permit and $140 that I already owed her.) Hopefully they don't mind. And also, I have to get a 7 day T pass, which costs $15.00, for unlimited rides on the subway, commuter rail, and busses. That'll get me there and back the first week, and then I'll have to buy another next week. I have like...$15.00 exactly lmfaoo. Well my mum's gonna give me $10, and Shannon owes me $4 that she said she'll give me tomorrow...so I'll have exactly $29 lmfao. As soon as I get paid though, I'm starting a bank account so I won't have to worry anymore.

I just got in from the mall with Shannon and the baby...Shannon being my best friend, and 'the baby' being her son, Malechi. I basically just walked around and helped her pick clothes to buy for the Marilyn Manson & Slayer concert she's going to in August. But Malechi had fun so that's really all that matters...and also I hadn't seen Shannon in like two weeks so that was cool. I did buy a ring though, at Forever 21. The band is faux-gold and it's got a ceramic white flower on top..it's very costume jewelery-esque but I like it, and it only cost $3.80. We ate at Johnny Rockets, which I looove. The waitress not only forgot my Sprite, but she also forgot that I ordered an order of fries with my burger....and then her and another waitress were rude, so we didn't tip. The food wasn't even that good, and we felt rushed. But once again, Malechi enjoyed it so who cares lol.

I'm not gonna go into detail, but kiddies. Fighting on the internet is about as ballsy as a field mouse. Seriously, don't think you're all big and bad threatening someone and calling them names in an INSTANT MESSAGE, because chances are if you were in front of that person you wouldn't be saying shit. That's all I'll say on that subject =]]

I'm gonna be starting a Myspace layout site too...idk what to call it yet. But I've already got 3 layouts made, one is the one I have on my myspace. Add me if you have a myspace, I love meeting new friends =].

I've got loads of research on Save The Children to do for work....I've already done some and it's really very interesting. I think everyone should check it out, and educate themselves. Just go to Savethechildren.org and read up on it, and if you can afford to, donate =]]

LOL I'm just finished listening to one of the Dane Cook skits on my iTunes. He seriously is so funny....idrc what others say about him because he has a lot of haters but I still find him to be one of the funnier comedians now a days. And he's from Cambridge, Massachusetts =]]

Oy vay I have a ton of stuff to do. I'm off, cheers! =]

Oh, about my title

I just realised I forgot to explain the name of my blog.

Well I originally wanted it to be clandestine.blogspot.com, but that name was taken. So my second choice was Kissaphobic. Kissaphobic comes from a line in one of my favorite McFly songs, Little Joanna "and that's why i'm a kissaphobic, how your life dreams are made."

"The Clandestine blog of a kissaphobic teenage girl" is because I didn't want to COMPLETELY give up the clandestine part...and clandestine means kept secret or done secret...and this blog is a secret from my real-world friends and my family. And no, I'm not really afraid of kissing lol. But once again, my username is kissaphobic.

Soo yeah. Hope I cleared up any confusiong =]

Blahh

Ugh I'm so full. We had baked stuffed haddock and corn on the cob for dinner...I'm soo effing stuffed. My mom's friend Roseanne is here, once again. She's always here. I hate her. I actually loathe her. Like... wouldn't-care-if-she-ended-up-on-a-milk-carton kind of hate. She makes me want to stab myself in the eye with a pen, only I wouldn't give her the satisfaction. Uggghh. Also, my Auntie Corey (my Godmother) and her two daughters, Leah (8) and Sammy (6) came over. I always love seeing them. Hopefully I'm going to spend the night at her house this weekend. Her oldest, Pat (15) is like my little brother...we were raised together. I love that kid to death. My mom asked Corey to be the Godmother when she was two weeks pregnant, lol. Roseanne hates Corey, but it's okay because Corey hates Roseanne too lol. Not that many people like Roseanne much ahaha.

I definitely woke up at 4:02 PM today. I went to bed at 3:30 am. My sleeping schedule is so off whack. I'll probably end up taking some Tylenol PM and going to bed in a couple hours. I hate sleeping through the whole day....even though I have no life haha.

I applied for this great job at a place called Dialogue Direct. It pays $13.00 an hour...which is great because I live on $100 a month right now. And I'd be able to really help out my mom. My interview was yesterday, in Boston at 10 AM. There was a like a huge group of people, but everyone got 3 minutes in the office alone with him to interview, and he said he was gonna hire about 2 people or so. So I have to wait until Friday to find out if I got the job...he says he'll only call if you're hired so yeah. But I think my interview went pretty well...idk though. I've been praying every night to get this job...I really really want it, and I also really need it. I'm in debt...I owe my mom $140, my friend Brian $100 for Fall Out Boy tickets he bought me...I have bills to pay, I need a new cell phone, we need food, I have barely any clothes. Ugh lame. LOL if you pray, pray for me please? That sounds so selfish but this job could really help my mom and I, and I could finally get my life back on track, and that's all I want, is a simple, good life. That's really not a whole lot to ask of life, right?

Well right now I'm sitting here eating a giant red freeze pop and listening to the RENT movie soundtrack....which btw is one of the best soundtracks ever. =] Laterrr

<3Meg

First entries are always fun.

Hmm. Soo...hi? Lol that's intriguing, yea? Well...I always find it hard to decide what to write in a first entry. You don't want to completely open up right away, because then the readers will think you're a loon and never come back, lol. Or maybe being a loon is what keeps eople coming back...yea? That's something to ponder for ya.

Well...my name is Meg.I'm Irish, English, Austrian, and French-Canadian. I live in Quincy, Massachusetts, which is about a 10 minute train ride from Boston. I've lived in Quincy all my life, in 3 different homes. It's always just been my mom and I...and we manage just fine.

Right now I'm not in any form of school...although I fully intend on getting my GED and attending college for music, or graphic design, or both. I'm not 100% sure yet. I'm also unemployed at the moment. But I don't just sit on my ass all day. My mom has been handicapped for the past 5 years, so I take care of her full time. It's really tough and it takes a toll on me, but who the hell says NO mom I'm not gonna take care of you or help you in any way? No one with a conscience, I know that much.

I can be a huge bitch. I've yet to meet a bigger bitch than myself...which is really saying a lot. But I'm also very nice. I don't have very many friends, but the ones I do are very dear to me. I would do anything for my best friend Shannon and her beautiful son Malechi, and she knows that. I'm a very loving person, actually. If you're fortunate enough to get really close to me, you'll know what I mean. Some of my best mates are ones I only know online, so far, which sounds lame. (Aimee, Kirsty, Skye, Bri, Justine, and everyone else from PFP who I talk to on a regular basis, hey guys!) Next summer, Aimee and I have decided that we're all gonna fly to London and tour with (aka follow) one of our favorite bands together...she thinks I'm joking, but I'm not =].

Hobby wise...I'm pretty much a geek. I love my iMac, and I adore Photoshop, graphic design, web design, HTML, the whole bit. LOL I told you I was geeky. I also love to sing, and as you'll soon find out, I make loads of videos and recordings of myself singing. My favorite TV shows are The Black Donnellys, Grey's Anatomy, Heroes, American Idol, ONE TREE HILL, Hidden Palms, America's Next Top Model, October Road, and Law & Order: SVU, to name a few ;]. And I have loads of favorite movies. Music is absolutely everything to me. I've had some really rough times and my music is what keeps me going. My favorite bands are Fall Out Boy, McFly (the band we're going to stalk), Son of Dork, Paramore...and loads more. Fall Out Boy saved my life, as cliche as that sounds. But they really did. When I've a broken heart, they're there for me. When I'm pissed off at the world, they're there. Although I've never met any of them...they're the best listeners a girl could ask for =]. WOW do I sound lame, yea? Lol. I also love to read...I'll read just about anything you give me. And I really enjoy writing, especially fan fiction. In kindergarten, my teacher predicted I was the "next Stephen King" although I think she may have exaggerated a bit ;-].

Uhm, I really don't know what else to write? If there is absolutely anything else you'd like to know, just ask, yea?

Thanks for taking the time to read!
<3Meg