All-nighter.

All nighter's are unhealthy, yet I just pulled one =/. Lmfao. My sleeping pattern has been really off the past couple of days...obviously. Friday night, Jacki and I hung out with Kyle..we met up with him at like midnight [walked to meet him..ugh I hate walking haha.], hung out at the park up the street, then we all came back to my house to smoke [basically all Jacki and I did Friday was smoke haha], and then Jacki and I walked Kyle alll the way back to his house...which took about an hour, so we got back to my house at aroudn 4:40 AM. We went to bed around 5AM, and woke up at like 1PM Saturday. Then Saturday night, we made Joe sneak out at like 11, hung out once again at the park, then brought him back to my house to smoke, until around 2Am, when we proceeded to walk him half-way home. So when we got back to my house, baked out of our minds btw, we were up until like 5AM. Elias had slept over Saturday too, so he woke me up early a few times Sunday morning for like breakfast and stuff [He's 3...my little man haha]...and after Jacki and Elias left, I slept til 5PM Sunday. Then Sunday I was up til 3AM, slept til 4PM...and last night, I didn't go to bed AT ALL. I'm running on like...I don't even know. Two cups of coffee, vitamin water, and no food. Haha. After I finish this I'm gonna go get food. The only reason I didn't go to bed at all is cos I'm gonna be going out in about an hour to meet up with everyone in Quincy Center, and I knew if I went to bed at 6AM, the chances of me waking up before 6PM were slim. =/. At least tonight I'll be tired enough to go to sleep nice and early.

Today I'm probably just gonna hang out with the usual crew at the library/galleria/Quincy Center for a couple hours. Kyle's supposed to be coming over later on tonight to hang out and watch Boston Beatdown [www.bostonbeatdown.com], which is a documentary he's in. That should be cool. I invited Jacki too, but she's got some family issues going on so idk if she'll be able to come =[. It makes me so sad to see her hurting. I hate when my friends are sad. =[[

I'm starting to develop a crush on one of my guy friends...and I know we could never be together. One, because he's basically taken by someone. And two, because he dated one of my closest friends for a while and I know that she would be so hurt if I were to be with him...and all of my friends would basically turn their back on me for it. Which sucks...but hey what can ya do. I don't really care though...I'm not exactly sure I want a relationship anyways...like I do...but IDK. The guys I'm attracted too lately are either too young, too taken, or just...idk...not good enough for me...which sounds conceited, but that's the only way I can phrase it. And I don't want to get hurt again, so the only way I know how to fully protect my heart is not to give it away to anyone. "That's what you get when you let your heart win.." Haha Paramore lyrics<3. WOW, that was so absolutely emo of me =P.

I think maybe I'm gonna go hunt down some food...I'm starving all of a sudden.